Hi everyone,

This will be my last post addressing corruption of power. I unpacked 26 years of healthcare within the last 2 months. 18 years of being a registered nurse on 8/8/26. I looked at my license last year with tears in my eyes. I didn’t openly share my experience because I fought to suppress it until I couldn’t. An abuse case dragged everything out of the closet that I already knew was there. Now my closest is completely empty while the people that tried to go up against me have theirs to contend with. Being stalked for my entire life by multiple people is something I’m just finding that out. Who does that? And yes, I am reiterating this for the people in the back that like to run. I have the potential to issue a multi-million-dollar lawsuit. Two people can be extradited from Atlanta. Former NYPD Commander abused his power in an attempt to try to take me down. He’s not even worth speaking on. Neither is the former family member that made everything possible. When people attempt to run a massive smear campaign against you? You have the right to speak about it. No names mentioned. No identities revealed yet mine was, I’m currently experiencing cyberattacks. Like everyone else is. This country leaves us susceptible to attack. NYPD, FDNY, and Mobile Crises saw exactly what it was. They were the ones offering me support. My local precinct and others have protected me in ways that allowed me and my son to sleep at night.

As black doulas, we often discuss how we are the focus of many cyber-attacks after joining the doula referral, DoulaMatch. This can be confirmed through Reddit, where doulas have a subreddit to support one another.

Other local birthkeepers noticed there was a page impersonating me. This was more annoying than anything, but I reported the business that was impersonating me. Per Google AI: Valerie operates under her private practice named V. Kadash - Birth & Beyond.

Valerie Kadash RN Birth and Postpartum DoulaMatch Profile is still active despite reaching out to Kim James, the owner of DoulaMatch. Kim insinuated that I was the scammer and potentially harassing her. I have more education and experience than she does, but I guess seeing a Deepfake white woman overrode the black woman she took the time to look up.

The person impersonating my business is someone I know and I wish I didn’t. Birth Bridge took her page down immediately: Find Doulas, Midwives, and Birth Professionals | BirthBridge: v-kadash-birth-beyond. Linktree: Empowering YOU with love Official: Instagram, Facebook | Linktree. As we can see, Valerie woke up and decided to choose violence. I don’t have time for this, but I do have proof of her harassing me to the point I had to block her. Impersonating a registered nurse is absolutely disrespectful and unethical. I’m taking her down, so she doesn’t come for my doula community who has been the target of this nonsense. Read this article-Brantford woman who faked pregnancies an extreme case of scamming doulas, prompting groups to raise awareness | CBC News. At the top of this article notes DONA International head, Hamilton Family Doulas owner say sharing information can help doulas. I also contacted DONA International by email a few days ago, no response was received. Nothing in my spam folder.

I contacted my former family, Lamaze International. Despite the years I spent volunteering and giving my time to the organization, its leadership offered a dismissive response and stated they couldn’t get involved after I shared that I was just venting. That was when I realized profit over humans was alive and well here, too.

I’m writing about my journey just in case you land here accidentally or purposefully. Sometimes I pray no one will read my blogs because it represents heartbreak. They still deserve to live here. Typos, messiness, all of it. I just won’t look back anymore.

Becoming a doula triggered my worst fears. Yet, it was also a place that I grew to immediately love. I will still support birth, just more selectively. I faulted myself from leaving the nursing space and heading right into entrepreneurship, the way the doula training program suggested. It didn’t work for me and yet it did. I’m not here to follow rules that we created to protect someone else or to gain popularity on an app that isn’t mine. I don’t market or promote my business. It would be physically and emotionally draining to add that to my life. And fake as hell. RBF is strong when I see cameras come out.

I wrote so many blogs during 6/1-9/15/26. I’m not sharing all of them but wanted to get them out there & touch on resources that take a deeper dive in corruption, abuse of power, this men vs women thing, all the things that we’ve had to deal with since the beginning of time. Here is some reading, as always, sending love & don’t talk to me if you want to fight! The collective and I are tired. We’re resting for the rest of the season. Equity is the only way, we’re not accepting anything else. Netflix is too juicy for words. I’m actually going to watch TV while I rest. I’m so happy I have books to read. I can be a nerd in my glasses and an oversized T shirt. My hair is full afro or some variation of puffy straight. I looked at the stocks this morning like, oh. I’m putting my phone down and living life. Meeting with the people that are pushing for change to happen. Dropping the ones who don’t. I’d like to leave you with the following concept that our world tries to push into our reality. Who the real monster is based on violent responses. Black on black crime happens for a reason. This content has been reviewed by psychologists repeatedly. Reading is fundamental before speaking, unless ignorance is deeply embedded into your family tree.

Black men respond to trauma that has been linked to the Weathering Effect.
White men can respond from hatred, and that’s ok with the masses.

Elon Musk (raggedy TSLA) & Mark Zuckerberg (owner of META) have been all over the news.

Maye Musk, Elon Musk’s 78-year-old mother, has said she sleeps in the garage at SpaceX’s Starbase and considers it a luxury. Elon’s ex-wife has said he referred to the mothers of his children as “breeders” who were “interchangeable.” This isn’t surprising. The news should focus on actual news. This belongs in a tabloid. Or the garbage.

Their stocks are doing way better than they have all year. You can track stocks and see for yourself. Class is no longer in session.

Time to pick a side. Do you know who Mark or Elon are? I don’t!

Lubiana - Ancestors

A Moment of Silence

Mortal Kombat I beat the dog snot out of the guys on that college campus back in the 90s. Nothing made my body tingle more than the final Fatality. Hearing “FINISH HIM!” made my knees buckle. I seriously had to grab onto the wall to keep myself standing. I’d hit my secret buttons and walk away while my opponent had a temper tantrum. Sonya’s Kiss of Death? Good NIGHT. I put these dudes to sleep. I had my one “ho” moment because I was so angry to find out that my partner had been cheating on me with multiple people on campus. My main opponent was FINE AF, which yuck lol. This wasn’t me. I was very intentional with my body, I don’t have a body count that looks like a CVS receipt, like the guys did. Once this partner officially left our college campus, the guys went after me immediately. My resident assistant, Alisa Simmons? She saved my life many moons ago. I returned from my shower in a towel, not feeling the greatest, not realizing I was pregnant at the time. One of the basketball players was sitting on my bed. The room was dark, so I didn’t see him until it was too late. 6’5 man not dressed, held the door closed when I tried to run. I froze immediately. I was ready to give up when Alisa knocked on my door because she heard me crying. I love her. For so many reasons, but she took me to her room, and I cried in my towel, shaking uncontrollably. That’s when I went from the quiet girl to the masculine woman in protection of myself. I’m tired of being masculine when softness was all I ever wanted.

Final Fatality

So here comes what people called my one-night stand, a guy I knew for years so the math wasn’t mathing. The campus jumped on the opportunity to drag me through the mud, men and women.

He told his roommate that I was such a good kisser, sigh. I wasn’t happy about that but yup, our one-night stand was blasted on-campus. I wanted to strangle him. This supposed one night stand sat in front of my partner while I was pregnant telling him to get me sushi because I like it raw. I’m staring at him like he lost his damn mind, I love sushi but liking it raw is wild. There is no bro code ladies, we don’t need to be reminded of that ever. Power of the pu$$y is exactly why some men despise us. When my pregnant belly grew, this same dude tried to holla which is absolutely not the lane I wanted to take. Even his friend was like, bruh chill. I regretted the one-night thing immediately. Never happened again, revenge sex isn’t it. Not for me. I’m trying not to gag right now.

So, this song was one I sang at the top of my lungs in the club and at home. Little did my partner know, this was dedicated to him as I scream sung this in his face while standing on my tippy toes. My only marriage that happened because I wanted my daughter to have her dad. My mother disowned me but offered me the escape route right before we walked down the aisle together during my wedding. I don’t regret walking down the aisle anymore. I won with the birth of my best friend. Also, I’m not a public curser (normally), so this is edited. I turn into DMX when this song comes on. God said it was ok because my name was mentioned (Cookies) and so were my friends, except Tawanna.

DMX - What They Really Want ft. Sisqo

I think about when a n**** didn't have (yeah)
And a n**** told a joke, and the b**** didn't laugh (yeah)
See, now I do the math, I see if you got this (uh-huh)
And this and this to some cats, that n**** the shit (aight)
And that's all they fuckin' with
But see these b**** don't know (uh)
If these b**** ain't for real (uh-huh), these b**** don't go (uh)
Knock on the door, no show, I'm asleep, tryin' to creep
With yo' best friend, put it in, dig deep.

(ayy, X, let me talk to 'em for a minute, aight)

Sisqo, tap in…

Oh, I know, I know it's so hard to be
A victim of my reality
Heard you callin' me names, said I was trif
One thing you gotta know, I'ma be a nigga for life

Embody HER

I stayed Sonya. The men I played kept changing characters trying to beat me. One changed seven times and eventually had to turn into a literal demon. That was the only way he could beat me. Jumped on my bouncy boobs and took me down in seconds. I still won though. Boobs stay bouncing, enough for men to look, men being in there 50s didn’t change a damn thing. My face is here bruv. Look up. That’s why gentlemen are only welcome here. They actually heal. Thank you, Kings.

Chun-Li from Street Fighter gets an honorable mention. Hadouken? Please, KIKOKEN! She literally told you what was coming, playboy. It was her launching her qi/chi into an energetic fireball and sent it straight across the screen. Ken, Ryu, whoever they thought would save them, immediately ate concrete. Dang Ken, are you ok? I guess not the game was over. LOL. My name was already at the top of the leaderboard. People often try to intimidate or imitate who they fear. Meet that energy, promise it works each and every time. Safety first, always. I don’t play those games anymore.

The Corruption of Men

A Moment of Silence

Final Fatality

Embody HER

Intimidated people often try to intimidate those they fear